Wednesday, December 3, 2008

when is enough ENUF!

I feel like I am crumbling today! maybe a nervous breakdown or something! LOL! :o) seriously tho...my stress level is so up there this week that it is about to sky rocket! My moms health has been worrying me to death! hopefully we are on the right path with that now...her meds were messed up and they are now treating her for bronchiatic asthma! think her chest pains were from a med she was taking..so hopefully we have that straightened out! Then comes my stepson. I dont even know where to begin with him! I truly love him. I married his daddy when he was only 5! and he really had a messed up childhood! I know that and understand it! BUT he is 18 now and been given countless opportunities!! HE still screws up! what gives? how do you help someone who wont help themselves for more than 4-6 months! and all that time isnt just great..but better than the rest! so on top of those two major things in my life right now...we have a horse w/ rain rot we are trying to treat..and we havent had her long enough for her to trust us..so she is kinda skittish..and its alot of work grooming and caring for her! We feed and take care of horses twice a day! the evening feed usually takes the longest..and that is when I really need to be in getting food for my family! so that runs behind! I love HORSES dont get me wrong..I have just got to get a better schedule going on! I am trying to raise a almost 11 yr old and an almost 2 yr old! THAT in itself will wear you OUT! I am trying to work from home for a lady I use to work for..so that I can make some extra money especially this time of year! JUst got alot going on!! :o)
okay...enough is enuf for today! I am thru throwing my pity party! LOL!

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Cayden and Pappy

Cayden and Pappy
my son w/ my grandfather who has alzhemeirs